Daily Journal

18/8/25 - A daily and friendly reminder that if your kintype is one of a species that has both 'male' and 'female' traits, or simply only has one sex, please do not refer to yourself or to your species as intersex (unless you are intersex) or as a h*rmaphrodite. The former would be incorrect for perisex folk and the latter is a slur. No I do not care that it's a scientific term. So is r*tard. Both are slurs. Stop applying them to people. I recommend referring to yourself and your species as unisex (as in uniform sex) instead as this is both more respectful to intersex folk and has the bonus of sounding cool as hell.

17/8/25 - There's a bit of a gap in my understanding of my Noemata between myself as a dragon and myself as an enderman or myself as a bittern. This has led me to believe that I was and am a dragon first and foremost, and the enderman and bittern aspects of myself became part of my physical makeup at a later point in my life.

This may, if you'll indulge me speaking about my religious beliefs for a moment, be due to the way that (at least I and other finnic pagans believe) the soul is split. While I do think that my kintypes have some sort of innate biological aspect about them to me, I also believe it's because my Luonto is 'shattered' for lack of a better word. My Luonto, my very Nature, has been split and fragmented into shards. It was a dragon, wholly, but over time fragmented into both an enderman shard and a bittern shard (which I say is all bitterns for now, given that I feel I am all of them).

If you will bear with me further, I don't quite believe i've been reincarnated, but rather that I was physically shaped/planted into this human body on this planet on this plane of existence. And I do think the reason that my Luonto has been further shattered is because the versions of myself that are meant to exist have all converged and melded into this one body that I operate. On a biological level my genome is messy and open which allows for wild physical change between my types, on a spiritual level I posess three Natures (Luonto) despite only having one Henki (self) and one Itse (breath) like most other beings.

Something somewhere sought to merge all my selves into one. I am lucky it was only three.

3/8/25 - I just realized that it's 'heart home' and not 'hearth home', i've been referring to my mossy estuary as my hearth home this entire time. I think my brain just filled in a double h when looking at the 'hearthome' tag so I've been reading it as 'hearthhome' nearly the entire time i've been using the term.

To be fair though I suppose 'hearth home' also makes sense as a term given that 'hearth' can be used as a symbol or phrase for someone's home, or as a term for someone's family unit. So I guess you could also call it a 'heart hearth'?

2/8/25 - Táim tinn... macking cheese...

29/7/25 - As much as being placed in (transfigured into?) A human body sucks, I do enjoy the human digestive tract. It means I get to drink monster without vomiting and I think that's pretty cool.

25/7/25 - I am beginning to realize many of my dreams where I visit my pod may actually be very strong memories with them as opposed to an active visitation. While this does deeply sadden me, it also does shed some light as to how I got here in the human world.

I think something happened to me, possibly. Not an injury, but a sort of transfer. I'm stuck. I can't go back. I need to go back.

But i'm here. I'll have to make the best of it while I am here. I do think my pod sent me here for a reason. I think i'm on some sort of journey for a reason. My duties as Picture Speaker sent me here to learn, I think. To learn, share, then return.

18/7/25 - (In response to This Post by intrusions-theater on Tumblr)

I'm going to start with the origins of the word dragon, so bear with me.

TL:DR the ultimate answer is, "Yes, you are a dragon because you say you are, and that is enough."

The modern english word 'Dragon' comes from Latin 'Draco' (serpent/dragon) which in turn comes from 'Drakon' (serpent) which in turn may be derived from dérkomai/édrakon. Dérkomai simply meant "to see" whereas érdrakon may have referred to a creature with unusually sharp/bright eyes, or with a deadly gaze. Even further back, Dérkomai probably derives from indo-european Derḱ- (to see) which derives from sanskrit Dr̥ś- (to see). 3 steps back and "dragon" already stops being about snakes and/or reptilian creatures and starts becoming about deadly eyes, then about sight in general. So by this loosest of definitions, anything with particularly striking eyes could be considered a dragon.

Even looser though, different languages have different etymologies for the word dragon the modern Mandarin 龍/龙 comes from a proto-sino-tibetan word meaning thunder and is a cognate with multiple words for thunder/the sound of thunder/hail. It's also possibly the basis for the old turkic suffix -lan (wild beast) as well as their words for lion, tiger, and snake (aslan, kaplan, and yılan). Polish 'Smok' is theorized to either come from russian 'Zmei' (snake, but is also used to mean Kite or as a figure of speech meaning/personifying Alcohol) or derived from a word meaning To Suck/Smack ones lips. Finnish Lohikäärme (salmon snake) would also be here, but it was likely just a phonetic transcription of swedish Floghdragi (flying snake).

Fundamentally, the words for dragon all gesture back to some vague, powerful, mythological beast that likely stood in as a fear of the unknown (strange dinosaur bones, the deep sea, the stormy sky). I'd say dinosaurs count under that.

Interestingly on the bones aspect, several accounts of prehistoric animal bones being dug up were labeled as 'dragons' by scholars. In Traditional Chinese Medicine, prehistoric fossils are often labeled 'Dragon Bones' and used as part of medicinal care. The Wawel Dragon of Poland's bones are said to hang outside of Wawel Cathedral, but likely belonged to a Whale or Mammoth. A couple scholars also theorize a lot of dragon stories in regions with dinosaur bones specifically came up as a way to explain why the massive bones were there in the first place.

All of this to say, the word 'dragon' in and of itself is such a loose term that I believe anyone who feels that they fit under the term can use it and apply it to themselves. The term Dragon is a matter of self ID. If you feel you are a dragon, you are one. You are a dragon because you say you are, and that is enough.

17/7/25 - Adding to the kinsidering list. Earth Nameless Ghoul (from the band Ghost). I will elaborate later, but it's largely for the same vibes as gargoyle kinsidering so those two might actually be the same thing.

Actually a LOT of my kinsiderings might be The Same Thing hold up. I will think about this more before posting anything else about it because I don't want to jump to conclusions, but writing everything down helped me make sense of things a little better

16/7/25 - Pita and Kippers for breakfast I am winning at life

14/7/25 - I should probably mod/build what my home in the end looked/felt like. The chorus forests were so lush and vibrant, it feels so bare to look at them now. There are hardly any trees, the ground is dry and pitted and dead. Jeanne isn't happy either. What caused this barren landscape? Who did this? Who destroyed our cities? Who took our wings? Who razed our homes to the ground...

13/7/25 - So funny to me how the modern perception of selkies mostly depict them as Harbor seals, completely ignoring the other species of seal native to the waters around Scotland and Ireland, the Grey Seal. If we're gonna get especially pedantic, Grey Seal selkies should be the most commonly depicted given that the selkie 'mythos' as it were also comes from the areas around the Faroe Islands, in which Grey Seals are especially common.

12/7/25 - Tiercel's Exhaustive List Of All Its Kins (And also some one's i'm unsure of)

Hi! Hello! Día duit! In an effort to both show that being hella fucking complicated is ok and to have all of this in one place, here's an exhaustive list of every Kin/Kith/Archetrope that I have as well as some ones that are maybes and some ones I used to id with.

Used To ID With

• Wolf. Dropped for Coyote id when I realized I wasn't a wolf.
• Coyote. Dropped for Utahraptor when I realized I wasn't a canine at all.
• Utahraptor. Dropped for Dragon, which i've proudly held for multiple years.
• Vampire. Flicker. Not a full on kin but it was fun while it lasted.

All these were ids I held during my 'kinsidering' era for the first time, and while they didn't stick around, i'm glad that I had them while I did. They helped me find out who I am today.

Current

• Dragon. Kin. 'Main kin' I suppose you could say? I feel as though I am physically THIS a majority of the time. I am physically and mentally a dragon. Dragon is me.
• Enderman. Kin. Also just me. I am also physically an enderman, but to a lesser extent than I am physically a dragon. Mostly manifests in envisage/phantom shifts and behavior, as well as kin memories.
• Eurasian Bittern/Great Bittern. Kin. Also just me! Turns out I do have one bittern kintype! Recently confirmed.
• Americal Bittern. Kith/Hearttype. My family!! They're my buddies!
• Sunbittern. Kith/Hearttype. My friends and family!
• Selkie. Archetrope. Leopard and/or ribbon seal depending!

Questioning

• Gargoyle. I do feel like one quite a bit, but all gargoyle traits could also be explained away by other traits from my other kintypes/hearttypes. Also feels very Guard-y and snarly and protective. Possibly also maybe copinglink due to the warding nature of gargoyles manifesting as kind of A Different Guy in me to "protect" me from harassment/bullying.
• Alien Sophont. Possibly a copinglink or some sort of trauma generated kintype? I spent a lot of my childhood feeling like an alien to the point where alien me and "human" me are basically two different guys. Alien me is also probably due to the autism.
• Nonbiblical demon. Cannae explain this one. Also feels like a different guy sometimes takes over my body and talks weirdly for a while then leaves. Writes strangely formally. Then again. I am just a little bizzare so that could just be me doing that. Revolted at the idea of being biblical.
• Some sorta bug. I feel very Bug a lot. Idk.

24/6/25 - Fun? Tiercel fact of the day. I actually don't see pictures in my head. At all. (well, mostly). I think it's called aphantasia? Everything is sort of just a black void covered in a vague layer of static fuzz with occasional eigengrau patterns that dance around it. When I do actually picture something, it's either the abstract concept of that thing, or like viewing it through a very grainy, very fuzzy filter where I know what the details should be, but it's like someone put it under a layer of black in an art program and only turned the opacity on that black down to 90%

However, when I dream, I do actually 'see' what's going on. Weird isn't it?

Secondary addition to this, I DO have a constant internal monologue and about 40 running trains of thought at any given time, and I am fully able to converse with myself inside my head to figure out problems, so I think that makes up for not being able to visualize anything.

23/6/25 - Here are a few little species affirming things I've experienced recently, to let myself and others know that the world is not so bad afterall

• "Well you're a dragon, it's your hoard." -My sister while I was out at the art store and lamenting my lack of organization for my giant pile of art supplies
• Someone on a server joking about my blood being copper based (which it is for my species!)
• Friends generally treating me like some sort of critter rather than a human (always appreciated)
• "Alas, the dragon must go shopping" -One of my friends while I was yapping about not being a human but being made to do human things

21/6/25 - Tá mé tuirseach inniu, ámh!! Táim beagnach déanta le hullmhúcháin Artfight. Bileog refsheet amháin eile le dul. Agus rinne mé mo Neocities a nuashonrú inniu. I should probably make updated site buttons come to think of it because mine is fairly short and fat right now so it doesn't fit with the rest of the buttons on my site. That and I need to update the glossary ssjsjsj.

_{I'm tired today, but!! I'm almost done with Artfight preperations. One more refsheet to go. And I updated my Neocities today.}

18/6/25 - Update! Tá níos mó milseán matcha agam. Milseán matcha éagsúla an uair seo. Níl mé cinnte an maith liom iad chomh mór céanna, tá púdar matcha istigh iontu agus tá se deannach agus tirim.

_{Update! I have more matcha candy. Different matcha candy this time. I'm not sure if i like them as much, they've got matcha powder inside and they're dusty and dry.}

17/6/25 - Fun Fact! Tá like- ceithre fursonas agam. Cúig fursonas? Iomarca. Tá mé neamhchinntitheach lmao.

_{Fun Fact! I have like- four fursonas. Five fursonas? Too many. I'm indecisive lmao.}

15/6/25 - Fuair mé na milseáin chrua bainne beaga seo le blas matcha sa siopa agus tá cuma clocha abhann orthu. Tá siad crunchy cosúil le clocha freisin. Cuireann sé sin fonn orm- deich gcinn díobh a chur i mo bhéal.

_{Found these little matcha flavored milk candies at the store and they look like river stones. They're crunchy like river stones too. Makes me want to put like- 10 of them in my mouth.}

12/6/25 - Debating if I should make a full list of all of my alterhuman types or not, cause there are more than what I list, I just cut it down to the ones I feel most strongly! Maybe one day soon. I have a job now so i'm going to be a lot busier, but I'll still try to keep up my (infrequent) posting. I will make a spirited attempt at this Tonight after I get off work and no longer smell like frozen custard.